Amber's Story

I really didn’t know much about post-partum depression. The only thing the nurses did was give me a pamphlet and they didn’t stress how big of a deal it could be. After I had my first born I felt good at first with being a new mom. But then, PPD literally came out of nowhere – it snuck up on me. I don’t even remember how it happened or what caused it. It just happened.

I remember I would cry all the time out of nowhere. I was easily frustrated, angry, or upset. Mentally I was not in a good place. I never wanted to leave the house, I was eating all the time or crying over something or another. What scared me the most were my thoughts – they were very serious.

 

Breastfeeding wasn’t helping at all, and I was resenting my newborn each and every day. I hated it with a passion. I could only do it for three months.

 

My husband pointed out that I needed help because of how frustrated I was getting with everyone around me and my newborn. I knew there was something wrong and I needed help, so I made an appointment.

 

A week later I went to my appointment and it was confirmed I had Post-Partum Depression. I told them my thoughts, frustrations, the constant crying, and how I was extremely exhausted all the time.

 

My main concern was the horrible thoughts. Why am I thinking these things? I should be happy; I have a newborn!

 

The doctor prescribed Zoloft, but I didn’t tell my family about what I was going through.

 

Post-partum depression is serious. If you’re going through this, you’re not alone. Get help. Getting help was the best thing I could do because after I had my second child I had post-partum depression again.

 

There was also a lot of stress going on before the birth of my daughter. My son was in the hospital a few days before because he had a bad asthma attack and I stayed with him.

 

With my second, Lilia, I was an emotional wreck. I don’t know what triggered my break down or my post-partum depression with her, but I told my OB everything with my son, and I was worried it could happen again, so they kept me an extra night, and again I had Zoloft.

 

Getting help was the best thing I did. Post-partum depression is common. The best thing you can do for yourself is to talk to your OB. PPD is serious, just know you’re not alone.

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